24 days into my move to Nashville, I am alive, tired, but alive. The days are long, most of my nights are spent working instead of sleeping, my brain is constantly running and I miss my dog, but this is what I came here for.
I wake up every morning at 5:30, I shower, pack my lunch, apply some mascara, brush my hair, gather my materials and I am out the door by 6:30, tired, wondering where is my energy going to come from today, but this is what I came here for.
I put a smile on my face, I practice my lesson, over and over again, I teach my lesson, I realize it might never go quite how I planned, I hang with the 6th graders as they eat their cafeteria lunches, I get feedback on how to be better tomorrow, I try and eat my lunch, while grading exit tickets, but this is what I came here for.
I enter training sessions with an open mind, I practice, I practice and I practice some more, I learn how to make a lesson align with Common Core Standards, I learn that math isn’t so bad, I go home, exhausted and with a brain full of new knowledge, but this is what I came here for.
I open the door to my apartment, I eat ramen noodles for dinner, I open my laptop and begin planning my lessons for next week, I practice tomorrow’s lesson, over and over, I lay in bed tired and burned out, I can’t fall asleep because I wonder, “How can I be better tomorrow?” but this is what I came here for.
While the days are long, and I certainly have a lot to practice and to remember, I think about the little moments in my day. I think about seeing the look on the face of one of my kiddos when they have that AH-HA moment and I realize, this is what I came here for. I think about the student who passed me in the hallway on their way to the bus that said, “See you tomorrow, Miss Hagan” and I realize, this is what I came here for.
To learn, to inspire, to grow, to teach, to struggle, to succeed, to become a teacher, this is what I came here for.
Thank you, to all of those near and far, young and old, who day in and day out, help me remember, this is what I came here for.